Misty Mind

The sky is so high that I can’t dream
The tree is so tall that I can’t climb…
The hill is so steep that I can’t trek
The way is so long that I can’t reach
The stream is so fast that I can’t swim..
The wind is so strong that I can’t stay…
The wall is so thick that I can’t break..
The road is so bumpy that I can’t drive..
The game is so tough that I won’t win….
My mind is so misty that it thinks in this way….

My Losses

I don’t know how many times I lost in my life
It was not one, it was not two….
But as the days passed and as the life flows
I didn’t think of my loses
I moved ahead as if to reach on top..
I never looked back, I never stopped too
They were not touching and they were not deep

But this time the pain was intense
My heart was breaking apart and
My mind was losing control
My days were darkened as nights…
My thoughts were filled with grief
I lost all my faith on me..

I knew I am going to lose..
But I didn’t do anything to stop
I thought I could bear this lose
But it proved very much otherwise..
I started this to lose.. like a foolish boy
The end was defined and I was a tool
I don’t know who played the game…

It made me realise that I could cry
Like a lady with rainy eyes
It taught me that I could love
Some one with all my heart…

My Life

Every one says it’s ‘your life’
But I never felt it as mine.

I was always tied up
My mouth was always hold shut
And I was made deaf too

By the people who lives around me,
By the society which includes me,
By the cast which I am supposed to believe,
By the Gods of the heaven above

I was not free to fly around,
I was not free to talk what I want,
I was not free to love whom I wish

In my life I heard ‘don'ts' ;
More than a permitting ‘yes’
I studied from my whole life that;
A man is born to bondage
A man is born as a slave

A slave of his society,
A slave of his cast,
A slave of his culture,
And a slave of the Gods,

With all these knots around
How can a man be free-
And live a life of his own ?

Childhood

I remember you in my dreams
I wish you to come back to my life

Those were the days of heavenly bliss
Those where the days of endless joy
I wait for the dawn to come
And prayed the sun never sets.

The world around me was full of love
And I didn’t know what hatred was
I was a pet of all, and I got all I wish.

Each day I found novel from the other
And they came in lots in line
Oh..you are the sweetest of my dreams
I wish you to come back to my life

The Soul

I am in search of my soul
From the birth to till this moment
But I couldn’t find it anywhere.

I searched it for long outside-
Then for years inside me
But all my efforts went in vain
Still I’m looking around and around.

Can any one tell me how it looks like ?
Can any one tell me the smell of it ?
Can any one tell me the colour of it ?
Can any one tell me where can I find it ?

I know I am not the beginner of this search-
Which began from the time immemorial.
So many spent their whole life-
And passed away without success.